My Testimony, Not Anyone Else's

There are days when I'm reminded of how God has blessed others around me. Because of this, I sometimes struggle with being content with my life, my journey, my lot. Why has God chosen to give others the things that my heart so desires? Is He being mean? Is He punishing me? Has He forgotten me?

These thoughts, that travel so selfishly through my head, are from no one but the devil himself. I believe that God chooses to give us our desires of the heart when He knows we are truly ready.

Psalm 139:1 says, "O LORD, you have searched me and known me!" He is my Creator and He knows me inside and out. He has laid His hand on me and knows my path. He has already decided how everyday of my life is to be lived. God knows what is best for me and knows exactly when I should be blessed with the desires of my heart.

In Proverbs 3:5, God says to me, "Trust me, trust me, just trust me, Jennifer! Don't lean on your own understanding, but trust me! I'm giving you YOUR testimony. Your own way of being able to share how I've blessed you, kept you, loved you. A way of revealing my glory through your life so that others can see my good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven!"

I am so thankful for the trials that God has allowed me to go through. James 1:2-4 has helped get me through so many of them. Reminding me that through the trials, I am growing in my faith. I've seen God work and move in ways that I can't explain. I would not know many attributes of God, had I not gone through my trials. I know God has a plan for my life (Jeremiah 29:11). So, I will continue to seek Him through the waiting, knowing that He only wants what it best for me.

May God reveal His wonders and mighty ways through how He has chosen to give each of us our own testimony.

Jennifer

"You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD... ~Jeremiah 29:13-14a

"Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD, and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones." ~Proverbs 3:7-8